his sweet self

My little one is so happy. I must be doing something right, cause his little face is always smiling :) I used to not want kids, but now that we've got him i couldnt imagine life any other way.

Whoa.

If you thought your house is messy, watch that Hoarders show on A&E. I looked around my apartment and instantly got to work. I couldn't get over the dead cat that had dried to the lady's living room floor. *shudder* Who says TV rots your brain haha.

Ack.

It's a bitter taste sometimes, life.

Reminds me a little of Ophelia floating down the river. Heartbroken and  slightly unbalanced, singing herself to that deep sleep. Maybe not to that extreme, but you know how when you lie in a bathtub and you put your head in far enough to cover your ears; The white noise you hear? I feel all muffled like that. My eyes closed and all closed off to the world, enveloped in a vessel of warmth and calm. One of these days I'll pull the plug and emerge from the bathroom with a towel around my head and a q-tip in my ear ready to take on the world again. But for now, I'll stare at the textured ceiling making shapes, and listen to the muffled sounds. 

My heart still aches.